"Stronger," Matthew doesn't need to think about that. Indeed, he is thinking of the bottles hidden beneath the floorboards beneath their bed; the kind of 'stronger' that he's keeping well-hidden from Bennet. For the time being. He'll tell him one day soon. When he has more of his memories.
That's what he's telling himself to assuage his guilt.
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That's what he's telling himself to assuage his guilt.